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It is more than okay to feel what you feel

"Stop minimizing and discounting your feelings. You have every right to feel the way you do. Your feelings may not always be logical, but they are always valid. Because if you feel something, then you feel it and it’s real to you. It’s not something you can ignore or wish away. It’s there, gnawing at you, tugging at your core, and in order to find peace, you have to give yourself permission to feel whatever it is you feel. You have to let go of what you’ve been told you “should” or “shouldn’t” feel. You have to drown out the voices of people who try to shame you into silence. You have to listen to the sound of your own breathing and honor the truth inside you. Because despite what you may believe, you don’t need anyone’s validation or approval to feel what you feel. Your feelings are inherently right and true. They’re important and they matter — you matter — and it is more than okay to feel what you feel. Don’t let anyone, including yourself, convince you otherwise." —Daniell Koepke

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berlin-artparasites

A good read is a treasure for me. I always have interest for good writings or stories (Humans of New York for instance). Recently I just found a Facebook page named  berlin-artparasites. Based on the  profile description, berlin-artparasites shares compelling artwork that alters the way we live, love, work, play, think and feel. And I loveee it. I especially love the comment sections. I always have something about solitude, and there's a lot about it on the page. I spent quite some time reading all the posts and got myself drown in it. Here's some of my favourite comments :

And to pick one of my fav posts (tho I haven't gone through 1/3 of it..), I gotta pick this one :

Dear future child. If it’s 3am and you find yourself in a world of complete despair. Please do not turn to strangers on the internet for solace as I did. Please climb onto my bed. And I will hold you until the demons sleep. If it is Thursday morning and you are too sad to move. I won’t force you. I will buy ice cream and we will watch your favourite tv show and I will remind you of your importance. If you feel as if you have no purposeI will remind you that you were created entirely with love and every pain you feel, I feel too. When you’re sure you can’t go on anymore. I will tell you that when I was 21 I searched for peace at the bottom of a vodka bottle chased by a bottle of pain killers. But that five years later. When you were placed in my arms in the delivery room. I realised that you were why I had been holding on. Without realising it, you saved me, do you know how amazing that is? So if you ever feel like grabbing that vodka bottle, put it down, we will get in the car and I will drive until the sky turns magenta. I will show you how the sun rises every morning to encourage you to rise too. Sweetheart I refuse to be unaware of your sufferings. As my mother was to mine. ―Ellis Jayne Edwards

Not that I already have a child or I am nearly having my own child, but for quite some time, I think about my future child. When I get tired or unmotivated, this future people that will be mine come to my head. Maybe this is the kind of "I-knew-I-loved-you-before-I-met-you" love or "how-can-you-love-someone-so-much-that-you-never-met". It's weird for most people, I know. Well now I'm going to continue reading and find more good stuffs.

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another milestone

Tiga setengah tahun kuliah, ga banyak kenangan yang gue punya, ga terlalu banyak sosialisasi, teman dekat pun beberapa aja. Bahkan gue sampe nggak menorehkan apapun di blog ini soal hari kelulusan itu. Tadi lagi iseng-iseng bacain posts lama jaman kuliah, terus keinget masa-masa itu jieee. Gue masih inget betapa senengnya gue pas akhirnya lolos UMB dan masuk hukum UI. Perjuangan belajar setiap hari di rumah dan di BTA... Beh. Akhirnya kebayar juga. Agak ironis sih memang karena setelah menjalankan kuliahnya malah ga sesenang yang dibayangkan atau lebih senang dari saat keterima. Salah satu hal yang memotivasi gue untuk kuliah adalah figur seorang senior SMA yang juga satu tempat kuliah, yang sangat menginspirasi gue (levelnya kayak how Dian Sastro inspires me lol). I do remember that I made a promise to myself since college day one that I am going to graduate cumlaude in 3.5 years. And three and a half years later, I did achieve it. 

Another milestone was completed and I am really looking forward to getting another ones. I know it's a bit different this time cause I haven't set my exact goal yet. I never really live without any plan secured in my head, so I do have a big picture for what I want in my life. Talking about this exact goal, well, I need a lil bit more time before stepping in the next milestone. Just wait for it, self ;)

promise/gift to myself

skripsweet

KMK FHUI 

college buddies

fellow Theresians. 

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Persie is saying goodbye to English Premier League!

Kira-kira 3 tahun lalu, gue ngepost tentang ini :

As I said before, I love Van Persie therefore I love Arsenal. Van Persie left Arsenal, so did I. I'll support Persie wherever he is. It feels weird to see Persie as ManUtd player indeed. Just wanna say "Have a good time in Old Trafford, RVP!"

Masa-masa itu gue masih ngikutin EPL banget, karena bisa nonton pertandingannya tiap akhir minggu. Kalo sekarang... gue nonton juga udah ga pernah, terakhir nonton itu kayaknya pertandingan terakhir Persie di MU pas dapet gelar juara liga ke-20. Buset udah 2 tahun ga nonton haha. Gue emang lebih interest nonton bola yang bentar gitu sih kayak Piala Dunia atau Piala Eropa. Nah sekarang ternyata Persie pindah dari MU, cuma 3 tahun aja Persie disana. Tahun pertama yang gemilang sebagai top-scorer EPL dan dapet juara EPL pertama setelah 8 tahun merumpun di Inggris. Tapi 2 tahun setelahnya berlalu kayak gitu aja.  Ga ada apa-apa, cenderung ga produktif. Terus tengah tahun ini diisukan akan keluar dari MU demi tempat di skuad Belanda untuk Piala Eropa 2016. Gue ga gitu merhatiin juga kan, sampe akhirnya liat di berita Persie pindah ke Fenerbahce. Apakah itu? Namanya agak familiar tapi ga bisa sebutin satu pemainnya hahaha. Ternyata klub Turki gitu, lumayan terkenal disana, terkenal banget malah. Jadilah kemarin ini Persie sama keluarganya berangkat ke Istanbul, Turki untuk medcheck segala macem dan uda resmi jadi pemain Fenerbahce! Wohooow. Gue gatau bisa nonton Persie main dimana, secara nonton EPL aja ribet sekarang. Afterall, all the best luck for RVP! Van Persie left MU, so did I. I'll support Persie wherever he is.

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